Everybody will need somebody’s help someday

I wanted to be nice when I called you, because it was out of total concern for a person you know “ki agar kisi ne tumhe 2 baje message kiya hai to kuch urgent hi hoga”. But you made me feel it’s not a good thing to be nice, not once but many times.

On that day, you tried to mock me by saying the name of some other person and even asking me my name as if you had forgotten it. It was clearly an attempt to show that you have forgotten me or moved on or whatever that you wanted to show by taking somebody else’s name.

But you call me at 2 am in the night, I help you with all your form filling. Leave that, I write your essay to get you a job, help you before a crucial interview, whenever you needed me, you just called me and I was there even after we had split up. We were not related in anyway, but I was there and helped you.

You can be with anybody or say thank you to a zillion people publically, I could care less. But I am a human too, have feelings too that get hurt. When friends help, they expect Thank You at least and more so when you thank the entire world, but that friend.

But I understood how could you thank me publicly, ofcourse it would look so wrong on your part to be seen taking help from your ex and then thanking him publicly, although you won’t hesitate in taking his help. So I understood that and stopped myself from saying anything other than congratulations to you.

Basically I didn’t want to ruin the moment for you either. The moment when you had your dream job with you.

I should have understood it when you tried to show to your Nidhi Di that you were not meeting me and asked me to leave quickly from the restaurant. You, who asked us to remain friends after we split up was ashamed of showing to people that we were friends.

I kind of did understand as well. But it took me a hell lot of time to understand that you only called me when you needed my help, so basically kind of used me under the guise of friendship.

Now coming back to that call, the way you addressed me, it was really pathetic. I tried to show my anger as much as I could, but then I controlled it. I wanted my money first and then let you know this.

I hardly cared for money when I gave it to you, not that I never wanted it back, but because you needed it and as someone who knew you very well (or so I thought) and your vulnerability I always gave it you and never asked back.

But when you misunderstood me the other day (when you asked if I had your photos) that day itself I thought, I need to cut my connections. But then you again asked for money, not once, but thrice and I gave it to you as well without thinking much because I still thought of your needs as a friend.

Also with translations (for some Guy) even if I translated for you, I never received any thank you what so ever. We say thank you even to strangers when they help, but you took my help for granted and didn’t even bother to thank me, as if I was some douchebag, which will help you no matter how much you punch him.

But what you did intentionally that day on phone and then again with the “Thank You everyone but me”, it made me look like a true fool, I mean come on, nobody forgets nobody’s name. That incident, it truly just shook me up and punched me in the face saying, "Yeah sucker you keep your promise of helping her whenever she needs, while she keeps treating you as garbage".

That was the day I wrote this note (made some adjustments a few days later).

Saying my name when I call you instead of someone else's, saying thank you when I help, acknowledging the fact that you took my help and I helped you, these were very simple things to do. But you chose not to. Which is fine. Your life your decisions.

But I felt hard done and wrote this, because my life my decisions. So I am not at all ashamed of helping you in anyway. I would have helped anyone if I could. But I feel sorry for the way you treated me and took me for granted. Nobody does that. I hope nobody does that to you.

I know I might need your help someday as well because I believe everybody needs somebody’s help someday or the other and that’s why i help anybody I could.

And I will ask for your help too when I need it because you owe me and you have promised. But I will be curtious enough to say thank you and acknowledge it and not call you by someone else's name or ask for your name when I call you or you call me.

These might be small things to you. But to me they matter. Good night. Be nice, atleast to those who are nice to you.